Right now it seems so hard to concentrate on anything. It's been the kind of day that took me way out of my comfort zone and although I am trying so hard not to let current events get to me it's not working.
May 31 I went to the Weight Loss Surgeon and received a list of people I had to see and tests I had to take. One of these was to see a Cardiologist and I had to drive alone. I hate driving, I am afraid of hitting somebody or being hit and I like going strange places even less.
To complicate matters DH had taken my car to work as his died and he just about got it home early this am. I didn't realise this until he called after 8am to tell me. When I told him I needed to be at the office by 10:30 he wasn't too pleased but he had to drive home (about 1/2 hr or so) and I had to drive him back, fill up and left before 9:30 to give myself an hour to find the place.
Well Map quest didn't do too well by me. My daughter found me a route without having to drive the highway which makes me freak.
Well to cut a long story short I ended up at my appointment over an hour late. I called at least a dozen times for directions. I even ended up in Providence (the city) and the somebody who watches out for my mistakes and helps me when all else fails, took over the wheel and out of town. Of course I had no choice but end up on the highway and all over the place and finally got within the vicinity of the office. I travelled up and I travelled down Cranston St, looking for numbers on the building for guidance.
Everybody knows how hard it is to see street numbers. Finally I got there and everybody was nice to me including the lady Doctor. You know, lets humour the old fat crazy person who can't find her way out of a paper bag!
It ain't over people. I have to show up at that same place two more times. June 2 for two stress tests (four hours..have to be there at 8:15 sharp OMG)
Then June 11 for the test results.
It took me about an hour to find my way back home again. So basically I have been on the road since 8:30 and got in the door a little after 1pm.
My mind hasn't gotten on track yet. Can't concentrate on my games, which usually are relaxing to me. Maybe some Xanax will help sort it all out. Where would I ever be without all my drugs
I can totally relate. I have no sense of direction. If I have to go to a new place, I have to go the day before and try out the route or get someone to drive me.
ReplyDeleteI have been in 3 serious car accidents, none my fault............so I am scared to be in a car now. I make myself drive and go for car rides with my hubby. But to live with little stress, I bought my house cuz it was 4 doors down from my work place.
If I quit my job, then I will sell the house and buy another house where I work.