Now that my surgery is right around the corner I have a whole lot of new thoughts going through my mind, the least of which is making it alive through the procedure. I trust my dr. and everyone who will take care of me, call me dumb but that part doesn't linger in my mind at all.
The thing that haunts me is suppose this doesn't work. Suppose after all my good intentions and going under the knife I still stay 280lbs. Suppose my sweet tooth overtakes my new small stomach. They say the lap band isn't as successful when it comes to people addicted to sweet.
To me addiction to anything sweet is a state of mind and it's followed me all my life. I can follow a diet and lose weight but sugar creeps up on you. I can chase it away for a while then there it is again, haunting me. I am looking through the forums and articles about how to deal with sweet.
If I can conquer this I stand a better job of losing this great millstone around my middle section and better my quality of life. I have to think about this and keep the evil Sweet Monster away. Salt is no problem, I can do without that, there's Mrs Dash and the natural flavours come through the food when you don't drown it in salt.
Crispy things like chips I can give or take, and peanuts fall in the same category. I like fruits and veg. but a large part of my diet will be protein and I was never a big protein eater. Guess I'll have to learn won't I.
This will not come easy to me and I hope I have the strength to keep to the straight and narrow. Even when things get hard, even when I am depressed, even when life drags me down.
This time next year if I handle this right, perhaps I can be 80lbs less with any kind of luck and staying away from my "red light" foods. Those of us who went to old school Weight Watchers remember red, yellow and green foods. Ice cream, cake, pie, cookies etc fall into that catagory for me
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