This is the third day I have tried to have a good diet day. Breakfast and lunch are fine, it's something about the early afternoon and on from there that is dragging me down. Seeing as Gene is working second shift I don't have his high-calorie suppers to tempt me, and I am eating the diet meals. I think it all boils down to stress.
Yesterday I did good up to about 4 pm and then my grandson wanted chips and how easy it is to eat a handful myself. When he acts up I find myself eating. It's like I stood outside myself yesterday and watched me put away 5 sugar cookies. These cookies are nothing at all special, except they are soft-textured. You can get the whole package for $1 (10 large cookies) so you know they are crap.
Ever wonder why most people are so fat in this country? Less and less money coming into the house. More high-calorie, cheap junk comes in to fill the stomach and used for stress eating. It's an endless circle and I am trying to break the circle for myself.
By then I feel the day is shot so I eat handfuls of cereal like a robot and vow tomorrow I will do better. Meanwhile the weeks are going by and I worry about losing enough weight to make a difference in the hot summer around the corner. One of my problems is that I have trouble seeing the big picture, the goal I am working for. Some people can keep their eyes on the prize and steadily work towards it until it is reached.
A better person than me could have at least 30 more pounds gone by this time than what I have now.
All I can say is, today I will try to do better. I have eaten breakfast and am not hungry. Lunch will be in a couple of hours time. Maybe if I cycle 20 minutes I might feel like I am accomplishing something. I haven't been on the bike in 2 weeks. My excuse is that I am trying to go through my things in the hopes that we can move into a much better place than where I am now. I've lived here 28 years. That is an awful lot of "stuff" to go through
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