I really need to get away from the earthquake news on TV. It has been on all day and has settled on me like a dark cloud. Because I am always depressed anyway to a greater or lesser degree, this just adds to it. I am like that about catastrophes. Any time something terrible happens you will find me dazed in front of the TV, hearing the same things over and over.
Over the years many have told me not to watch any longer than I need to for updates as it brings me down so low. But something draws me to these things. The '89 earthquake in California, 9-11, the Indonesia tsaumi in 2004, Haiti's earthquake last year, to mention a few. I try to watch other channels but I keep going back to the news. Oh I remember another...the Gulf war with the burning oilfields and so forth. I don't know why I am like this.
What draws me to these terrible happenings?This dazed and depressed feeling will last a few days, until other news comes up. The disaster still goes on but I am able to get away from it. Oh, and the Gulf oil spill last year. I watched oil coming out of that damaged oil-well like a zombie.
Tomorrow I have to work so I will be away from the TV, and because I have to race through to get my work done, I won't have any time to watch residents' TV's as I work in their rooms. I stay in the house too much but I don't want to go out unless I have to, when I have no choice.
I should delete this but maybe I will let it stand. This is the bipolar part coming out, and as I lean more to the depressed end, that is how I feel. I did ride my bike but still can't get hold of my eating like I should...depressed I guess
I just wrote a long comment and lost it, let me try it again. You are a caring, compassionate person. Your post just shows that you are human. The world should consist of more people like you and less a-holes. We (depressed people) tend to focus on negative news (I presume) because we are in such a diminished psychological state. I know about eating when bored, sad, etc and it is a vicious cycle. No matter what, no one can ever take away from you the sweet, caring, compassionate person you are inside. Your FB family/friends are always here for you. I'm glad you didn't delete this post because it was stuff that needed to be said, venting is very healthy. This chronic sad, hopeless, lonely state of mind is not very pleasant and unless if you have walked in our shoes, you don't know what the hell we are talking about. All we can do as humans (in our situation) is support each other. {HUGS}
ReplyDeleteVagueshoots I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your sympathetic, common sense reply. Also I have neglected my blog so I am so sorry I just saw what you wrote. You are so right about the vicious cycle eat-depression-depression-eat. I want to lose enough weight before the hot weather comes and it is slow and frustrating going, when you realise some people start on the path and head straight down the road of weight loss without a hiccup. In regular life I am like this as well, I tend to dither and worry and lose my focus. Thanks again for your reply and again so sorry I am just reading it xx
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