Its true: the lap-band doesn't stop you from eating

Why is it that I start each day with the best of intentions when it comes to food, only to flounder later on in the day.The lap-band is great for keeping you from eating in bulk (as in eating small portions for meals) but is no defence  against picking at this and that. I have to do better. Some how the other I have to find a way of keeping my hands occupied and my mind off, say, a handful of chips here, a candy there, pretzels and crackers. I notice I crave salt. Mike brings salt-and-vinegar chips in the house and that combination is irresistible.

Ice cream I can make from a Slimfast shake so that is not my problem any more. Chocolates, if they are in the house hidden from me, are also not a problem. Most pastry I have a much better chance than before of not eating.I've been doing my best to stay way from it. Christmas with the extra calorie-laden goodies is past and there were no parties or booze for me there.

Here it is at 11:30pm and most people will say, "Linda it is late. Save yourself some calories and go to bed." It's making myself go to bed that I have a problem with. Like making myself do chores, making myself take a shower, making myself get out of bed in the first place. I know that doesn't make any sense.

Tomorrow I see the Dietition but I don't think she can help me much with the picking. I did real good against this when I was seeing the Hypnosis Guy. I wish I could afford to see him again but my money is so short and has to go so many ways. I tried listening to a CD last week but I think I need his voice to make it work. I have to make time for myself. I am under a lot of stress from various directions and food was always my "fall back upon".

Why can't I just see food as others do, as a fuel to keep my body going so I can do interesting things and stay healthy. Why O Why