For those of you who object to all the time I spend on line consider this: If I wasn't upright playing games I would be fast asleep in bed. That's what I used to do before I had a computer to use.
Right now, there are two things I need to do. I need to get up and take my am pills and I have to call Walmart because I have 4 Rx's running very low and all of them need the doctor's say-so. You'd think I'd get moving but I keep putting these things off.
I also need to get a shower and get out of these clothes I have been in for the third day going now. I know. I'm such a nasty person and I agree with you, People who don't have chronic depression find it very hard to understand how it is I can sit here and write a blog entry, or play the clown on fb and yet have nothing left over for real life.
I started taking an additional pill last week but it hasn't cut in yet, that I can see. I wonder if it will take the 4-6 weeks to get in my system. Sometimes I strike it lucky and get almost an immediate result.
It would be so easy just to go to sleep, wake up, take more Xanax, sleep and so forth. Believe it or not I did a lot of living like that before I changed Lamictal for the Tegretol that zoned me out so terribly I couldn't even finish a sentence and forgot words and just lived to sleep. I managed to work full time though and I don't know how.
I remembered one morning making 6am and it was lightly snowing and dark and I was the only one in the road, down by the intersection of Tiogue and Arnold road. The light changed and I almost struck a car which was coming the opposite way that I never even saw. The car turned and went down Sandy Bottom Road and in my rear view mirror I noticed red and blue lights in the distance.
I almost had a head-on with a police car. He went his way and I went mine. Thank your Mr. Unknown Policeman for not pursuing this matter further, and I hope you had a nice fresh cup of coffee and an extra-big donut for your good deed
i have mager deprassion to ........so i under stand how hard it is to get moving........alot of times i do it for my kids somtimes it dos not work.......and the rest of the day ecomes a strugle for me ......like as you taking a shower is a defacalt task to and i may avoued for sevel days to.......i do not like driving onls i have to becouse i have become a danger to my kids and my self at times...........all i can say is we have to try to do the most we can for are self and are famly......some days are ezer than outhers........you will be alright hugs ........look at my blog http://bambam1213.blogspot.com/
ReplyDeletethanks as always for your reply Jim, anything from you is heartfelt as you "walk the walk" and I know you, nor Coleen, nor Jess would ever judge me for what I can't help. Just like you said some days are better than others, some worse
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