Take Little Steps

From years of experience of having major depression I know that it is far better to take a very little step ahead, than not trying at all. This morning I took a series of little steps. My back is killing me now so I am taking a breather and telling myself I will get up by 1pm at the latest to finish.

........I wiped down the counter

........cleaned the crap out of the litter box and put more litter in

.........swept around the kitchen, nothing major at all. I started just to pick up the torn Equal packets I saw near the the counter and rather than bend down and kill my back I just took the broom out and ended up just passing it around the kitchen floor

.........then began a massive struggle. I hate making beds with a passion, would rather clean the toilet as change the sheets

..........first of all I had to find some sheets. The bedroom needs a long-overdue clean-out and to tackle that would be so far above me now (but I have done it in the past)

..........in the closet I found plenty of winter sheets and blankets and what-have-you. Finally after 10 minutes of digging I found a top sheet and a bottom sheet and some pillowcases

...........Then I had to strip the damn bed *puff puff panic attacks back killing me* and I turned over one of my foam little mattresses, left the second one had no strength left

..........These little 2-3 inch toppers are heaven-sent. I have two and my back doesn't ache like if I was sleeping on just the regular mattress and box spring

.........After all that I am taking a break, sitting here and telling the world how lazy I am


Other steps I want to accomplish is make that stupid bed and get a shower
The worst 2 things I left until last:

CHECK MY DEBIT CARD BALANCE
CALL THE PHARMACY FOR AN Rx

These are worst of all, and I don't even have to speak to a human, the Lady Phone Robot deals with them. I just have to dial and make my way through a maze of menus. I'm worn out, I want to go to bed.

Even tho it isn't even made up yet