I feel nervous and I want to eat

I just took my pills so I hope I feel less anxious in a little while. Whenever there is too much going on at once around me or I don't feel well or the atmosphere just "doesn't feel right" I get like this and can't concentrate on anything. I've looked at all 3 of my games and don't feel like playing.

I came home early today because I just could not drag myself around for another 1/2 hrs. Not only did my usual left ankle, knee and back hurt, but there was also a pain in the back of my upper thigh. I think that is the sciatica nerve. So I got the Charge Nurse to write me out and I came home.

I drank my protein shake around mid-day and my supper around 3:30pm when Gene went out. He had KFC and I had some left over baked fish and ate KFC coleslaw. Then I had to eat the biscuit. I knew it was a no-no because they are high in calories. So far that's it but somebody brought a great big apple pie yesterday to the house and I did eat a few apple slices out of the middle but no crust.
Now I want the whole thing, apples plus the crust. It was home made and made on one of those old-fashioned deep pie dishes. So tempting

I usually have trouble over weekends because everybody is home and everything irritates me unless I take my Xanax and am able to feel less nervous. When I feel like this, too nervous to settle down, that's when I want to eat.

Just in case anybody thinks it is all clear sailing for me, it isn't. Just like in everybody else's life, there are things that get us down, get our backs up, get on our one last nerve. Also it makes me nervous that my eyes don't seem very focused, and I have to spend less time from here to relax them. Never had this problem before.

I think it's time to go to the eye dr's ...my years about up anyway. The insurance only wants to pay for office visits every other year (along with all the tests I have). Whatever