It's Nov. 1, the month of my WLS

Now starts a month that will make a big, different, change in my life. Overfull with Halloween candy, it is easy for me wish I wasn't such a pig. It's like I am on an extended "Last Supper". Knowing everything that was good to eat (but slowly killing me) will be out of the picture after Nov 5, I am busily saying my goodbye's to everything. Like KFC, pie, candy, Little Debbies, cookies and such. I know after the operation I won't want to even face any kind of food but I have to shrink my liver as much as I can by Nov. 19.

It's not like I haven't fasted for a test, or done colonoscopy prep or anything in which solid food has to be done without. During the time last year that I was having so much success with losing my 40lbs, I had no sweets or junk at all, and no food after 6pm. So I know it can be done.

I know holidays will be difficult but I have to say no. Even if I ate a little I would feel sick anyway and my small stomach will have to have protein fed to it before anything else. No drinking while I eat. Drinking other times than meals will be mandatory. I love Chrystal Lite and Dr. Pohl is letting me have some caffeine which will be a great help.

It will just be different that's all and I will not sit here and lie to you that I am not afraid of what's coming. No so worried about the surgery, I've been under before and I will be under again if I have any more procedures in my life.

I have to think about next year and losing some steady pounds. I have to think about my Indian bag and bo-ho way of dress and next summer. I want to go to Bermuda and wear a decent regular one piece instead of that old people's skirted "fat" bathing suit. I want my feet to feel right with less weight to carry around and take some pressure off my knees.

Before losing weight for good looks was my priority but now I am losing weight for my health and mobility and if I look nice that is extra icing on the cake