Don't feel like writing but here I am anyway

I don't know why I am writing, I really don't have anything to say that is helpful. Anybody who figured I would write a blog full of success and sunlight will soon find out that this is not that kind of account. As I am writing this I am eating a small piece of brownie (and when I go to the dietition I will "fess up" ) These guys around here made a beautiful pan of nice chocolatey brownies and left them around for me to see.

Of course none of this was done to lure me away from my meal plan but eventually water wears down stone and I broke off a little fragment here and there. Well it is gone and I hope nobody else brings in any more to stare at me.

I know what I am doing. I know this is what got me into trouble in the first place.

I lose weight best when I am on protein shakes. The less different types of food I have in my diet the better I do. Well I guess I was doing well so the Doctor told me to eat and I think I am running into a little bit of trouble.

Today for supper I had some butter beans, a small piece of roast and a small amount of mashed potatoes and gravy. I think it was more than a cupful that I ate. I am glad I am going to the dietition tomorrow so she can sort me out before I fall into deep trouble. The lap-band around my stomach isn't full, and it won't be tightened until after Christmas so while it is a deterrent the food can still get by pretty easily. I do what I am told about not drinking before, during and an hour after eating. I understand the reason for that.

Another thing is, I am craving salt. I can eat pickles (not the skin) and they taste so good. Also I grab a chip when anybody has some salt and vinegar ones and just suck the salt off and let the chip disintegrate on my tongue. Otherwise than the run-in with the brownie business I have kept away from all the sweets.

Now I have confessed and maybe writing about it and owning up to my great failings will help in the long run. I hope so