I know this sounds very childish and as it is I am embarrassed to be admitting I am depressed and don't have any goodies to make it all go away. Waaah Waaah.
There is nothing on TV but Christmas stuff and the news is very light-weight and repeats itself. My games are boring. In fact, I have felt this way for a couple of weeks now. I just go through the motions. When it's not fun any more it's work but I care enough to want to keep up and my friends play. Maybe they feel the same way. I don't know.
Maybe I might feel better if I cleaned up the kitchen some, it is such a mess right now. Everybody just fills up the sink and things need putting away. This house is too small for 5 people, just a little more room would mean so much to me. Or an attic or basement just to get rid of the clutter in.
I will be out of this house tomorrow and Sunday because it is the weekend and I am working. I will wear my bright red shirt over navy work pants, and I have attached a corsage like they wore on coats back in the day. My mother had many pretty ones.
This is just a plastic flower pick like you would use for Christmas decorations and I have 1/2 dozen safety pins holding it on. Maybe the old folks will get a kick out of it. I can try anyway.
There is one thing I do whenever I go to work, in any of the jobs I have ever had. I leave my problems on the doorstep before I walk in and put on my "people" face. I am so successful at this over the years that everyone thinks I am a happy person, live a charmed life. I have been told this to my face.
Unfortunately the problems are right there on the doorstep waiting for me when I leave to go home. And they will be tomorrow, even though it is Christmas and I should be happy
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