Just can't seem to get organised enough to do anything it seems. There are tons of online sales for women's clothes, some 80% off. I just looked through my favourite larger sized catalogue, "Woman Within" and saw a T-shirt type of top which I could wear to work. Buy one get 1/2 off. I just saw them. Even I with nothing could afford those few bucks for something to wear for work.
Just didn't have the wherewithal to haul out my card and fill in the order form.
I tell myself I can get some at Wal-Mart but I know I won't. I don't like going up there and nothing fits me anyway. I did make a Monday appointment for the Eye Doctor because something has to be done about my sight. The problem seems to be mostly in my right eye which is the weaker one. Well I'll put that aside until Monday. One worry at a time.
I see the Weight Loss Surgeon tomorrow in the morning and I don't think he will be too pleased with me. Christmas and worry and stress and "head appetite" have taken their toll. "Head appetite" is the urge to eat that you get when you are not hungry. You just want to eat and if there are any goodies nearby, will power goes out the window. "Stomach appetite" explains itself. You are hungry, then it is time to eat something, something sensible that is on your eating plan.
I have to fight this beast by myself. The lap-band can only help, not cure my obesity. I have to put forth the effort and right now it looks so impossible. Summer is a long way away.
This will make you laugh. I got a fake bang from Avon at a reduced price and it is sitting there on a stuffed turtle like a long-haired guinea pig. I want bangs but don't want to cut them. Every time I do, I end up growing them out again. The problem is, my hair is a mess. My roots are about 4 inches long. I have a box of dye around here somewhere. I got two boxes for the price of one some months back. Everything seems such a jumble. I want to do things, then I get lost in the translation.
I feel like I need some kind person to take me by the hand and sort everything out for me so I can find my way. The weight loss is all jumbled up with the rest. This is not a good blog entry but it stands anyway
I keep telling myself handle one thing at a time. It's hard to get overwhelmed after letting things go for so long. It didn't get that way overnight and it won't get fixed overnight. However, it does feel like weight gain can happen overnight...
ReplyDeleteThe Messies Anonymous motto (for house or body clutter): Baby Steps. xo
Hi Catmommie and thanks for dropping by, I love the comments!!! My baby step (tho it seems like a giant leap for me!!!) is to wash the dishes and clean the litter box (I have to get new litter first). With 5 people in the house these dishes just seem to dirty themselves :(
ReplyDeleteAmanda is riding me up to the doctor a couple of towns over so I don't have to worry about the traffic which is a blessing but I am dreading Mr Scale, hehehe