Lack of concentration around this time of year

It seems as though my mind has taken a vacation somewhere. I can't really concentrate. I love to play my games on Facebook but they have lost interest for me now. I mean, the point of playing is lost on me. I check in but the enthusiasm just isn't there the way it was a couple of weeks ago.

I didn't pay much attention to this until it dawned on me that television shows, even my favourite Britcoms, were not holding my attention as they usually do. Because I've seen them over and over these shows are like old friends to me but again the anticipation of a happy evening spent watching just wasn't there on Tuesday night.

Then there are books. I haven't read much at all since getting this computer, since I can find everything I want online. But now and then I take up a book from my over-crowded book shelves and sit down to read. I read the  same lines over and over and then give up.

Now I know for sure my concentration is failing me. Crossword puzzles (the easiest ones!) occupy my mind when my concentration is low, but now I am busted down to Word Search and this afternoon it took quite a while for me to find all the easy words on an easy page!!!

I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder every year around this time but this year, maybe because I am taking the Abilify, I haven't hit the bottom of the depression barrel as much as I have in past years (though the season is yet young!) But maybe the lack of concentration, one of the symptoms, has come by to pay me a call anyway.

People might say, Linda, if you can't concentrate, how are you writing this? Each time I sit down to write, I try to set my feelings down, and the rest writes itself, no effort needed. If I had to  write something involving facts and figures, well I couldn't manage that at all because that requires a lot of concentration!

This post has nothing to do with weight loss, except that in my normal SAD years I crave nothing but carbs especially the sweet, calorie-laden ones. Let's put it this way: I haven't eaten any sugar sandwiches yet and they are not calling my name. To make a decent sugar sandwich, you must have two slices of white bread, butter them on the thick side and sprinkle plenty of sugar on both sides, put them together and eat one, then get another one for good measure. 20lbs. gained in no time.

This year things should be different. Maybe I might not lose as much or as quickly these winter months but soon as the spring sun begins to shine I will more than make up for the time. I want smaller shorts for summer and a one piece bathing suit to wear on the beach