I don't feel like writing..but maybe it might help

My stomach doesn't feel so good and I know why, Today I went to Building 19 (cut rate store) to look for family gifts. I like it in there but I only go around Christmas time when I have a little money and have to make it stretch.

I got some things that I thought were nice for what I could pay and ended up in the section where all the foods were, many of them from overseas that I would love to try. I ended up throwing  a package of chocolate mint meringues in my cart. I thought, 4 of them were 120 calories, and they had no fat. I ignored the sugar part.

Long story short over the course of the day every single blessed meringue was gone. I ate the last one about an hour ago and I am feeling sorry for myself that I was so greedy. I read in a forum that there is such things as "stomach hunger" and "head hunger". I am supposed to eat my meals measured out and stay away from all the no-no's that my head was telling me I that wanted to eat.

So far what has gotten me in trouble is two tubs of cookie dough, these meringues, and when Gene makes corn bread and pinto beans Southern style I don't know when to quit.

I am also ashamed because I stepped on the scale a couple of days ago and I had lost 2lbs...I was down to 263.5. Well now I bet I gained those back today. One blessing is that I only work weekends and so have missed all the goodies in the nursing home. The girls and the families bring in so many home-made treats and they are so hard to turn down. I have Christmas day, Boxing Day then I am back on the straight and narrow.

 I see the Weight Loss Surgeon next Wednesday and I hope he makes this stomach smaller so that I will feel bad when I eat to much because I've been getting away with so much murder I am wondering if he really put a band in there  :-/